Monday, June 8, 2015

Monday Quotable

Occasionally, I go through bouts of dissatisfaction. I don’t want to call it sadness because I’m still happy objectively during these periods. The problem is I’m not satisfied with where my life is, if that makes sense. Anyway, I’ve been going through that lately and as a result, I have seen my patience wear thin, my tone lean closer to harsh and my attitude fall into the “UGH!!!” bucket more often than I’d like.  

I had a lesson in being responsible for the energy I bring into a space over the weekend. I was out with Ash and my family when Ash raised an issue. As I was responding, I could hear my tone—dripping in “You annoy me so much.” Internally, I was annoyed but my intention was to eliminate the issue by trying to fix it without getting annoyed. Well, you know what happens with tone, right? Apparently mine was harsh and parental. Ash responded in kind and then we both had an attitude. I’ll admit my attitudes tend to linger. That lingering energy impacted everyone else’s mood and led to a larger issue that I won’t bore you with.

The point is the sentiment expressed in today’s quote. Sometimes, my personality is a catastrophe. I’m a work- in-progress and while I may be happy overall, the things that make me less than happy tend to grab on to my ankles and drag me all the way down. I’ve tried to shake the malaise through some subtle changes: hair, makeup and home décor changes (though I’m not sure chopping 15 inches off of my hair and dying it coppery blonde qualifies for subtle??). Those things haven’t really helped so I’ve turned to a few other things to break the funk:

Spending time on my passions daily (for me, writing, cooking, décor)
Cranking up the amount of time I meditate/pray per day
Doing a cleanse/detox
Hitting the gym with a vengeance

There are a couple of other things I need to do with respect to family growth and career progression. I think I’ve found myself in another period where my life feels mechanical. Every day is the same and none of it is in the direction of my dreams. This purgatory has bought out the catastrophe in my personality but I know its not permanent. I'm knocking down walls so that it will be beautiful again. 

What do you do to break out of a funk? Please share in the comments. Happy Monday! 

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